I have lots of feelings lately. Feelings...what do you mean feelings, you ask?
Well, I'll tell you.
Yep...feelings. I feel too much! I am used to have numb jabs of this or that,..I'm not completely inhuman. But! I have wanted to cry lately. I actually....was on the verge of tears today. I don't know what that was about. Money problems, health problems, life problems, school problems, etc, etc. But, I've always had all those problems! I never FELT before! WTF! It's not like anyone died. Wait...someone did die. Todd died, but that wouldn't make me cry.

I want time to myself. Right now I am "to myself" but I'm waiting on not being to myself. My baby is about to have me call him back. I had my alone time for today, so it's a good thing I'll be talking to him later, but...I am trying to decide if I want time alone because I have so many art ideas...or if I'm looking for time alone, because I miss myself.
I hope it's the first one, because I'm going to be living with a bunch of people over the summer at GHP, and I can't have a fit of hermitosis over there. I am really excited about the experience, so I hope my brain doesn't ruin it for me

There are a few friends, in particular, that I can be around even when I want to be "alone" and I feel awesome. I told Derek that I can be around them all the time, and I think he took offense to it...
But, well...that's exactly why he's not included among the elite i can always be around...
He gets offended
Everyone knows I love him. I just hate drama, and he likes it or something. I don't know. I'll shut up about that.

I love the smell of spring. The plants get hot and open up their stomata, letting out the smell of spring. It's delicious. It makes me feel awesome..like GET A LOAD OF THOSE OPEN STOMATA!

So, if there are plants where you live, and a reasonably low pollen count, take a big wiff of spring. It's like flying. That's actually how I kept myself from crying today. I remembered that smell. Why that worked...well, no clue. But it did